Creativity's Leftovers

Why?

I think I’ve gone crazy…. I’m sitting in my room with it being almost pitch black with music blaring in my headphones, wondering to myself why my life must be so fucked up that almost every night I hit a low spot and wish I wasn’t the way I am, then like always I cry myself to sleep and wake up the next day in a slump for like 3 days and then yea…………… I don’t even know why I do it but I can’t stop… Someone tell me what to do please??